Life is how you look at it

"Jeannie marries when she's 21, she has a baby one year old. And every year that's the way her life goes. Lost herself in domesticity; a cleaning, pleading entity. She can't recall what she was before. In an ideal world kids would keep their rooms tidy, in an ideal world, he'd be home from his work on time, and in the morning I could lie in."

Those are some of the words to a song from the lead singer of my fav band, The Corrs. Anyway, I like those lyrics, I feel like I can relate. Sometimes I feel like the person I was before was a dream, was I really a young, fun, free spirited girl who could do whatever she wanted? I do feel lost in domesticity sometimes. The constant laundry and dishes, not to mention the booger graveyards one child (who shall remain anonymous) has created on my walls. The pleading with the kids to please clean up, please be nice to your sister, please say please, please, please, please. And to lie in the morning, well, that's a foreign language to me!!! Did I really use to do that?

It's kind of depressing I guess, if you think of it all that way. Usually I don't. Sometimes I have a hard day, and that song rings true blue. But, it's better to look at the bright side of things. I know it's hard for me to recall what I was before my married, mommy lifestyle, but I wouldn't take it back for all the world. Even though kids can be such stinker- ba- ginkers sometimes, I know every mother would agree that they are so worth it. They are worth the bags under my eyes, the extra chub on my body, the not-so-perfect all the time hair dos, the messes around the house... in short, the whole package, good, bad and ugly. They are worth all of it! I love making my kids smile, kissing their owies, watching them learn and grow.

So, I came up with lyrics for the good days!!

Jenny marries when she's 22, she has a baby one year old, and every year that's the way her life goes. Found herself through love and charity, a caring, sharing entity. She's still the girl that she was before (just improved!) In my child's world, I am one they look up to. In this big world, we are one happy family. And someday, in the morning I will lie in.

L'amour

Well, it's Valentine's this weekend. So, I thought that while I munch on heart shaped chocolates, I'd write about my valentine and how we met. Whenever people ask us how we met, we just kind of laugh and say that he met me at my work. Which is true, we just usually don't want to talk about where I worked.
So, here's the scoop. I was attending LDS Business College, which I got 2 associates degree's from, one in Business and one in Science. But, I didn't have them yet, but I did have a funky schedule with my classes. So, work was difficult. I did work for 3 hours in the afternoon at Uintah Elementary in the after-school program (which I loved!!) But, that's not where I met Brian. I was still living at home, so I didn't have a lot of expenses, but working just the 3 hours a day really didn't leave lots of leftover money either. So, my brother's worked at a club and we were friends with the manager. He called me one night and asked if I could come in and help and they'd pay me. I didn't know how I was supposed to do that because I was 20. (It was club Splash, which was a dance club/bar.) He said it was okay, I was going to be at the front desk, and he new I didn't drink, so he wasn't worried. Alright.
So, I went in. And they needed me again...and again...and again. Somehow it just became permanent, I was put on the schedule. Two gay guys owned the club. One of them, Rob, just loved me. He always wanted the people at the front desk standing. But, it was tough to stand that long, so we'd grab chairs and sit for a while. Well, he'd yell at everyone for sitting. Everyone would get so mad, because he'd never yell at me, what a sweetie!! Anyway, I was actually okay with working there because it worked FANTASTIC with my school schedule. I'd usually work from about 7 or 8 at night to about 2 a.m. Plus, my 2 older brothers worked there too. Really, I worked with some great people there!! Who'd have ever thought?
Well, back to how we met. I had gotten to the point where I didn't want to date for a while. I wanted to just focus on finishing school and not worrying about the drama of dating. And, in walks Brian. It didn't seem like a very busy night. But, he thought I was the hottest girl in the bar (mind you, he'd been drinking.) So, he gave me his phone number. In the trash can it went, thanks though!!
Well, he came in a week or two later and asked again if we could go out. I told him no. He kept insisting. I kept telling him no. It was the end of the night and I was walking around trying to help clean up, and he was walking around helping me. I thought, "who is this guy, coming to a club and cleaning?!!" So, he said his friend worked for Capitol Theater and that he could take me there. Ugggh, my weak spot. I loved (and still do) going to the theater. So, I agreed.
Did we ever make it to the theater? Eventually, on about our 20th date!! He was so different from every other guy I had dated, I don't even know how to explain it. I guess you just know, right?
So, we dated for a year. It was time to think about marriage. Ummm, now what? I knew it wasn't going to happen in the Temple. Well, we had a civil marriage. It was one of the best and worst days of my life. So bittersweet. I was so happy to be marrying the man I loved, he treated me like a princess. But, I had so many people unhappy with me and disappointed. I just don't really like to think back on all of it, even the good, because the good and the bad came together. They were intertwined. My feelings were hurt by lots of loved ones, but I knew it was out of love, I couldn't blame them. I hated that they looked at me as less of a person. Oh well, what do you do? Forgive and forget...good riddance!!
It's happy times now. After we were married about 2 and a half years, Brian told me he was ready to go to the Temple. I know I must have had a deer in the headlights reaction, because it was out of the blue. But, I was so happy!! We took prep classes and on Sept. 7th, we were sealed to each other and Farrah to us. That was a good day that I love to reflect on.
Since last December (2009) We've been married for 6 years, going strong.

That's us in a nutshell.

It's the New Year

So, it's New Year's Eve, and yes, I've thought of resolutions. Of course I would like to lose a few pounds. I mean, really lose them, not like lost and found, just lost. But, I didn't make that a resolution. I decided that there are other things that may help me lose a little of the unwanted chub, but also benefit in other ways too. For example, my first resolution is to get more rest. I want to try to get myself and my kids to bed at a decent time, not 10:30, maybe an hour earlier. It's harder for me to eat healthier when I'm tired, no mind control over body. I'm tired, just give me the darned chocolate. But, I think I'll really just accomplish more if I go to bed earlier and wake up earlier.
I'd also like to read my scriptures more, grow spiritually.
I don't know, I don't have lots of resolutions, so hopefully I'll be able to do them!!
Happy New Year everyone!!!